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Sunday, June 12, 2005

poem

Watch me fly away
With my heart intact
Running beyond
My deepest desire

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Sunday, June 05, 2005

poem

an injured heart in peril
scorn like the baby fawn
broken in two from the drunken s.u.v.
careening through the gravel highway
without a care of its surroundings

she doesnt care

sampling the succulence of pain
an unexplained phenomenon
i glimpse into the corner
until the sky blackens with hate and the sun rises with anticipation
waiting for her jazzy ring on my flip cellphone
nothing

my soul is grey

i oblige myself to call and chat
recieving her voicemail
the sweet message of her voice is all i need
to be entranced by the mesmerizing allure she creates
falling into the sand trap concieve by her bloodthirsty fingertips

my existance goes unnoticed

i lose the gunfight within myself
the proverbial stranglehold etched into my neck
her enticing giggle pierces my eardrums
like a gunshot wound to the chest

slowing seeping through my desolent mind

no more can she control me
with the remote to my butchered heart

she is
forgotten
forever

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good song

Louis Armstrong - What a Wonderful World

I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world

I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world

The colours of the rainbow, so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shakin' hands, sayin' "How do you do?"
They're really saying "I love you"

I hear babies cryin', I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll ever know
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world
Yes, I think to myself, what a wonderful world

Oh yeah

*^*^this song makes me happy^*^*

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Sunday, May 22, 2005

love

her eyes are speechless
as she confronts me in the night
tears of bliss stream down
her smooth succulent skin
pelting her innocent cheek like a child's bebe gun
carefully place in my palm

the soft glow of the setting moonlight
eases the tension as we walk along the beach
her hand forms around mine
and she gazes at me with a hypnotic brilliance
a surge of warmth resides within me
slowly emerging throughout the entity
of my entire body

i caress her face with considerate grace

and stagnantly shift my hand
to rest upon her yearning hip
i passively lean in, foreshadowing emotions of ecstacy

transcending an aura of everlasting infatuation

she begins to lean forwards
lending a last glance of eagerness
before her flocking lashes lower
our lips meet with such poise
that all space and time become unexistant

moments later she slowly releases her lustful grip
and our eyes slowly sound open
i hold her tightly, never wanting to let go
feeling a gleam of intoxicating joy from her quivering lips
i look deep into her angelic eyes
and see images of heaven emerge
she looks back with a mere sparkle

"i love you"

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Sunday, May 08, 2005

Lamb of God

Purified

Can the pestilence within you be bled out

May I have the honor of this amputation?

Know that you have made an enemy

To show you the meaning of indignity

I live no solely for the pleasure of your slow decay.

Feel the pain of vengeance burn you,

Soon you shall know silence.

With trembling hands you'll beg for mercy.

I'll show you none.

Purified by my hand

In this my world

It is salvation.

Your futile existence draws to a close

A cloak of lies drops.

The lies drop.

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Thursday, May 05, 2005

just like before

elastic mood swings
carried on her shoulder
i just feel like i should hold her
too late, she's up and gone again
i think that this is
going to be the end

why does this always happen
when you say you want me, you really dont
why do you keep breakin me down
makes me feel like, i am going to drown(hold)

then its just like it was before
once again i walk out that door and,
i get sick of your shit everyday
i keep wondering why do i stay
but i wont be another casualty
cuz i just want you to go away(hold)

i used to live for you and die for you
now thats over and now we're through
free me from your relentless stare
and just get out my life cuz i dont care
rip out the remaining shreds of my heart
now its my turn to start

why does this always happen
when you say you want me, you really dont
why do you keep breakin me down
makes me feel like, i am going to drown(hold)

and then its just like it was before
once again i walk out that door and,
i get sick of your shit everyday
i keep wondering if i should stay
but i wont be another casualty
cuz i want you to go away(hold)

solo

once again its how it was before
now get your shit and walk out that door(hold)

i wont be another casualty
i want you to fucking go away(hold)

go away
go away
go away
go away

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Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Sum 41

"There's No Solution"

maybe nothing else will ever be so clear
or maybe that's only my fear
if just for one day I wish I could disappear
just take me far from here
maybe I'd find out nothing new
maybe I'd end up just like you

there's no solution (no solution)
give me truth to my conviction
is my own confusion (my confusion)
reality or fiction
am I out of my mind

this constant pressure that keeps hanging over me
it makes me feel so empty
it's more than anything that I could ever be
what else could you take from me
it's getting harder to relate
don't want to make the same mistakes

there's no solution (no solution)
give me truth to my conviction
is my own confusion (my confusion)
reality or fiction
am I out of my mind

it took me so long to find out it's right
there in front of me
too close to see
what I thought was true
I see right through what's killing you

there's no solution (I can see)
give me truth to my conviction
is my own confusion (that I feel)
reality or fiction
am I out of my mind

so maybe nothing else will ever be so clear
or maybe that's only my fear (am I out of my mind)
if just for one day I wish I could disappear
just take me far from here (am I out of my mind)

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Sunday, May 01, 2005

poem

she is an angel with the face of a demon
a heartbreaker from the beyond the grave
expelling a prolonging effect
extended by her demanding urge
to devour my soul into oblivion
as i wander forever in a cloud
of moistened mist

harassing my every step
and haunting my every thought
it becomes dramatically unaviodable
to flaunt the pain and suffering
that tightens around my wasted heart
withered like a wilted flower
that has met it's end

consciously in a state of mind
of which i can no longer follow
she beseaches me and drains my energy
making me feel as though i am entrapped
in an ongoing blizzard
where death is futile

she evolves into the annoying crow
that screeches outside my window at four in the morning

possessing me to insist a gun upon the temple
of my thick-headed skull
yanking the cool metallic trigger
putting an end to it all

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Monday, April 18, 2005

views from the other side

a haunting precaution
feeling usless under my breath
kept alive by the one thing i hate
ashamed and disappointed
i skyrocket into denial

and pass out eternally
within my own fantasy

emerging through a dream
of a sleepless slumber
i view the hordes of blood
flowing like a river that is never ending
hovering upon the jagged rocks
emitted by this destructive war

without warning the end had arrived
a suicidal bet with the devil
to send me into despair
and turn me into a guinea pig
to cure their urges
of ill-fated amusement
and torture

sanctity disappears
and i accept the irreversible coma
bestowed by these visitors
harvesting my organs without mercy

feeling my soul slowly float away
i force myself to look down on my corpse

condemned to a science project
by the influence of these sick creatures
guided with fear
and fueled by the drug of violence and triumph
the will of these demonic aliens
afraid of their own shadow
these self-proclaimed, peacekeeping humans...

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Thursday, March 24, 2005

Cheney

"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

.Never forget.
.Always reamember.
.The joy captured.
.In your graceful beauty.
.As you enstill a part of your enchanted shadow.
.Inside each and every one of us.

.We look upon you.
.Drenched in our own tears.
.And you stare back.
.With eyes wide shut.
.Imbedding a hole in our lives.
.Forever.

Your spirit will always live on
We miss you Cheney...

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